I completely forget to use this damn journal sometimes. All my personal thoughts go up on DeviantArt, Y!Gallery, and Furaffinity, rather than me posting them here where it's much more private. Though, I can't agree with people on said sites yelling that an Art site isn't the place for personal thoughts, rants, and break downs. We are given journals on there to be used however we want. And honestly, you can't always draw, cry, or physically remove the feelings that plague you. Sometimes writing is the only way, and not everyone has the time to manage more than one site. Sure, it's an art site, but that doesn't make an artist any less of a person, or emotionless. If anything, artists (all artists) are more emotional than many groups of people out there. They need to find a way to express themselves, if not in music, paintings, photos, or drawings, then in written words. It can be rants, poems, or even stories.

At any rate, I do plan to use this place more, perhaps post more of my artwork here (the doodles at any rate) when I start drawing more. Inspiration is a fleeting thing lately. Evil, evil. But I am hoping that the artxchange helps me start getting into it a bit more again, as well as Fandemonium. Though I'm not completely sure if my girlfriend and I have a table or not. O_o; Guess we will see.


... As fangirlish as it may seem, I would love to change my layout to a WoW one. Anyone know how to do that? I've been having problems finding any good themes or tutorials...

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I've got to rant about a couple of things though I think I may toss them at my DA journal as well... Maybe not. It's mostly aches and pains in my own body, not much more. Or rather my head, to get more to the point. My right eye, as of late; has been hurting off and on. It's not always, and it's not frequent; but it certainly does hurt. It's a random shooting pain in the back of my eye; and I wonder if it's eye fatigue, or just the head ache that keeps recurring each day. Which leads me to the next pain that's been plaguing me. My other busted wisdom tooth has been aching ever so slightly; though it's not a thing like it was when my other tooth abscessed... Just irritating really. It makes me wonder if the headache is coming from my jaw or my eye, or if all three are actually linked together. Bah... -_-

I've also been in a funk lately, sorta depressed but I'm not sure why. I guess I just want to be with my girlfriend. She's been depressed as well lately, so we really much question what it is. We much just miss each other a lot, since it's been nearly a year since we last saw eachother or did anything really...

-_-; Guess I'll run off and try to work on some art.

-Syan

So, I joined wow_artxchange, mostly so that I will have drive to start drawing more WoW related art. For some reason I'm intimidated of drawing my own toons. ^^; But drawing other people's is always fun. Anyway; hopefully this will lead to me actually being more active here. At least to post there once a month or so.

Speaking of WoW, it's been a love-hate relationship with the game recently. I dearly want to play, and do for an hour or two here and there. However; I mostly don't want to do the quests set before me. It's put me in quite a mood lately; I feel a bit depressed. Perhaps some WoW with my mother will help out this odd feeling I'm having. We haven't gotten to play our Hunter and Warlock in ages.

On another note, I am in a relationship! I have a girlfriend!! 8D It's been almost two years since my last one, so I think that I waited long enough. I finally wasn't looking anymore; though I had feelings for a friend that had culminated last year when she visited me. And lately I had pretty much set my heart to being loyal to her; at least until I found someone else. However, with a bit of insesant prodding from my ex (my friend again finally) and the question of "Are you two EVER going to go out?" I asked, on behalf of my ex, and well; it ended up that we got together. 8D Happy day! It's filled a needy void that's been scabbing over recently.

However, it seems to have started some slight problems; as I have found that another friend of mine was going to ask me out... I'm openly Polygomous, but I wasn't really looking for that at this time, more than happy to be loyal to one person right now. So, it's causing a slight situation with them, since they are best buds. Hoping that I don't fuck anything up between them; since that would just make mine and Mika's relationship almost worthless in way. Gah... Hope everything works out on that front, seriously.

Otherwise, I am fatefully unprepared for Jacon, still have 3 items to finish up on my to do list, have a contest running; PLUS I'm doing pittly little things on Gaia and Subeta. But oh well; once I get out of this lack-luster feeling, I should be able to at least finish up the stuff for Subeta, if not finish up a commission for a friend. ;3

P.S. Sylvanas is the sex.

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